sorry for the inconvenience.

I mooved back to TUMBLR lols who know I might just test out all the other blog sites ;p

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I don’t wanna grow up.

By the end of the day, I will no longer be an undergrad. Yay whoop-dee-doo. Now it’s time to… do what?! Be Somebody? Do big things? Sure, why not. ;p

Someone please hire me soon! I don’t want to rely on mommy and daddy anymore.

Stay tuned to Burn Baby Burn, as she attempts to find a job.

whoops & ugggh. toot it and boot it.

so i went to the club, to see wasssup. toot it and boot it. toot it and boot it…
played hella times!!! dear djs, please pay attention to the songs the previous dj played.

HIGHLIGHTS:
+ BLUEBERRY MOJITO!
- embarrassing moment: umm thinking your dancing with your man and turn around and it’s not him. haha whoops. uuuggghh still embarrassing.
= people watching:
- dude that was getting play from all the easies.
- the really tall midget
- the girl in the blue skirt, from pearl on a sunday.
- vallejo in the hooouuse.
- happy birthdays LOL for more than the birthday celebrants
::::: mad moment: getting on my bike and missing a pedal! uuuggggh.

ending the night with my love making a microwavable marie calendars to share, he’s so romantic.

slept through the night like a baby.

went to iminusd got laughed at, then jp says, “thanks for having us.”

say what?! I didn’t even know they stayed at the apartment last night!

lol cheers for cocks night out (+hanna).

ROCK THE BELLS 2010!!!

I am patiently waiting for Rock the Bells!! So excited to see most of the artists on the lineup, and kinda doubting that Ms. Hill is actually going to be there. If she does come, I can’t wait to sing my heart out.

In the mean time I was reminiscing on Rock the Bells 2009, and how I had a photo fail with MURS for President!!!
SOO SADD.

Here you can see the attempt, and then the FAIL!

MUST SEE SERIES OF THE SUMMER!!!!

Pretty Little Liars!

I love this show! I didn’t know there was a book series. If I had time, I would go out and read the series in a day just to see what happens next!

I highly recommend you to go to hulu.com, now! and watch it, if you are bored out of your mind.

Lol I think maybe I like it because there’s a character named Hanna. hahahaha. lame.

CHECK IT OUT!

outfit ideas for EDC lol.

Rave pictures are filled with sweaty people in fun get-ups with bracelets and pacifiers, some really cute and others really ridiculous. I’ve never been to a rave before, so I can’t judge the experience through pictures. BUT I’m guessing this is this what it really feels like? (listen to the lyrics)

okay they are more clothed than what you wear at raves, but you can still pick and pull a few things, if you watch close enough. I’m diggin the crayola stunnas ;p

Random: Have you noticed that Pitbull likes to repeat other people’s lyrics and TRIES to make it his own? At least here, he gave credit to LMFAO. hahaha.

to all those going to edc, have fun and be safe you sexy people! & don’t forget to bring me back some Roscoe’s ;p

what is love? baby you’re hurting me. goodbye.

Being the hopeless romantic I am, I stumbled across this email and my heart dropped.

(i italacized a few things that stood out to me.)

Dear Joseph,

I really wanted to handwrite you a letter but with the hectic of your moving and finding a new place, I don’t think sending a letter would get anywhere. Anyways, here is my last letter to you..

After reading the last letter you wrote to me, I took a long and deep walk and just thought about everything that has been going on.

I just sat at a park and looked at the many strangers that passed me by. I really stopped to think and I can not help but and look at these strangers for one moment and wonder, wonder to myself all the pain and obstacles that they had to overcome just to be standing here today. Did they once sit here like I did, believing in love, believing in that one person to always be there for us in the end?

There is no pain greater then that of rejection, the one that tears a person down and strips them of their pride. The pain of realizing that sometimes you have to fall to learn how to stand back up again. Each and every time that I felt that you teared me down, I wanted to stand up and scream out loud just to tell the world that I am strong and I will not cry a single tear of pain in front of anyone to make myself vulnerable to your deception. I am hurting Joseph, but I am not dead, so what doesn’t kill me, will only make me stronger.

I am not sad but only disappointed in the amount of effort you shown in keeping our relationship alive. I believe that no matter what the obstacles, if we still loved each other, neither one will stop trying. Joseph, I never stopped loving you, but I cannot love someone who cannot love me back.

I know my words will not make any difference, but these words are just lingering inside. I guess these words have their rights to say their last goodbyes to you. I really contemplated telling you about my feelings inside because they are a sacred piece of me, but I guess they deserve to be spoken as a last goodbye from me to you. Sometimes I just wish I could feel the same way growing up, I wish that this world has a secret place for all of us to mend our broken dreams and broken hearts. A secret place that will not only show us sunshine for the next thousand miles, but even if the sun does not come out today, it will show us answers somehow. But of course no such place exist. We all have to find a way to mend our broken hearts. We all deal with things differently. Just because you are not longer in my life, please do not think I do not love you or do not think of you, we all have our different ways of dealing with pain.

As for now, all I have left are these words to hang on to and life to cherish. Even if I feel as though I have lost a part of myself, the road ahead is long and still far. So much as happened during these past couple of weeks that is hard to for me to think back upon our relationship and not feel empty inside. However, time can only take away from me the things that matter most, but leave behind the true gift ready to be unraveled.

I really hope you find your happiness Joseph, because I am not going to wait for you any longer. If love was really meant to be, it would never give up. A wise man once told me that there are many ironies to love: loving someone at the wrong time, having the wrong person at the right time, or finding out that you love someone right after they walk out of your life. But, the best advice at all is to let go when you’re hurting too much, give up when love isn’t enough, and move on when things aren’t like they were before. Joseph, I am hurting too much, love just isn’t enough for you, and things are definitely not like they were before. I am letting you go Joseph, it’s the only choice I have. I really do hope you find your happiness and best of luck to you and Penny or whoever you may end up with.

You know, all I ever wanted was a life full of of laughter, but laughter doesn’t seem mean anything anymore now that it’s without you. But I’ve learned that life is too short to be waiting for someone who does not love you back. I only have tomorrow to live for, so I should really make today worthy of every single breathe I take. Life is funny but the beauty within life is held captive within all the people and things we love. So my final words to you Joseph, carpe diem, seize the day.

Love,
Charlotte

i want a perfect body, i want a perfect soul.

I woke up this morning and I couldn’t see. As a matter of fact, I wake up every morning and can’t see. I can’t even see what time it is. I am writing this and I can’t see. Well if i put my face hella close to the screen then I can see. It’s so sad. Then i thought of the lyrics from Radiohead-Creep:

I don’t care if it hurts,
I wanna have control
I want a perfect body
I want a perfect soul

Even though that’s not what the song is about, I relate to that stanza? group of lines? it’s not chorus. I hope you get my drift. That’s how I feel when I can’t see, helpless and not in control. I am dependent on vision enhancers. I want Lasik sooo BAD, because I hate wearing spectacles and contact lenses. Yup, Lasik surgery is the solution to my problem. Oh, the things we do to solve our problems/issues.

Then my choo choo train of thoughts made a stop to plastic surgeryville and then to self body image land. I once wrote a self body image paper entitled, “unreal is stick”, unrealistic. you get it? lol. It is basically about society and media having an effect on young women and what they are doing to obtain “looking the way they are supposed to”. It’s UNREALISTIC, the media is digitally altered. FAKE FAKE FAKE LIES LIES LIES.

On top of that, it’s even worse for Asian girls, because we are all supposed to be skinny right?! Well kiss my semi plump booty and gut. I really think the reason I workout is to EAT MORE FOOD hahaha, I love food.

Body image issues are a serious problem in young women today. It’s a mental disease! It leads to hurting your body through eating disorders, drugs, and harmful diet pills. I know WE ALL WANT TO LOOK GOOD, who doesn’t. Please do so in a correct manner, see a nutritionist, get a personal trainer, eat right, workout, be active.

& EVERYONE STOP CALLING GIRLS/GUYS FAT! SOME PEOPLE CAN’T HANDLE IT! ( I admit I have called some people fat, but from here on out I vow not to judge)

I was a victim to this mental disease!

GOSH I swear I felt so FAT and I was size 1 and 0. Now im a bit larger 5-8 depending on the brand lol, but I am happier with who I am, I wish I appreciated it when I was size nothing. Honestly, all I have to do is stop drinking, but that’s another blog.

I don’t encourage you to be obese and eat whatever you want all the time, but don’t be so hard on yourself. YOU AIN’T NO SUPERMODEL, THAT’S FASHO lol.

hey baby im a rockstar.

If there is anyone who can make the weird look sexy, the award goes to Miss Rihanna.
On the other hand, it’s still UGLY… why everyone is going GAGA?
Check out Miss Xtina trying to be GAGA.

like my dad would say it’s GAAA GAAA, stupid. (in the nasty filipino flemmy accent)

Whenever I watch their videos, I am just anticipating for a look that I would want to replicate like a little teeny bopper. “Like oooh I want to do that.” HAHA I did find one look though…

VV Brown does it best and Christina did it in her video too.
It’s this forward front poof kind of deal. I did notice, I like it best with a hair accessory.

Thanks to my best friend Melissa Rose DeLeon, i found vv brown.

i think i am supposed to be blonde.

So last night, I went to motif. I don’t remember much but here are some highlights.
- i worked out my forearms.
- we got more alcohol.
- jared dropped his Id in the gutter?
- andoo hella fell on the floor.
- chris was wearing a bowtie.
- colleen is the sweetest.
& according to ryan: rhoda, jp, and myself were stumbling.
OH WHAT A NIGHT!

Ok so I think Im am supposed to be blonde. due to the lack of my vocabulary, I was trying to figure out what the holes in a drain/gutter are called all day! drain holes? slits? gosh sooo stupid. I didn’t want to ask a friend because I was already feeling hella dumb. When I don’t know something, I google it. I entered “drain holes?” and this is what I found…

It’s the Monticello Dam. Whoa man, what if you fell down that?
Then I kept on googling… “Monticello Dam”

WOW i didn’t even know it was soo close too.

In conclusion, I still don’t know what the holes in a drain are called.